oneword.: influence: "I remember coughing up blood that morning and went I went outside there you were, tucking into your first beer of the day, at 8am. I laughed at you then and I look back now and wonder did my amusement influence you in any way? Did the fact that we all thought alcohol abuse was funny then steer you in the direction you took? I can't ask you now just like I can't ask you if you still drink or what jail was really like. "